The ProphetI’m not sure at what point I first decided that I liked art, or even if I decided. Every child creates paintings when they’re little that are cherished by adoring parents. But for me it became something serious, naturally.
My first favorite house we lived in was Worcester Boulevard, the main strip of the arts center in Christchurch. We lived directly across from the creative hub, and every weekend there were markets and crafty stalls on the weekend, and I would sometimes have a stall of my own. I would bring out our teal coffee table and put it on the street next to our fence. I would string up paintings like a washing line and sell them for 20 cents each. And people bought them. Probably more than anything because they thought it was cute to see a seven year old kid selling her work. I wonder if any of those pictures survived and are hanging on strangers walls somewhere.

For me, that is such a high. I love when people look at and consider my work. I love having people talk about what they think it means, or what it means to them. That my work might strike debate or evoke feeling in others is such a treat. It gives me meaning. It makes me feel like I have something to contribute to society, some kind of merit.

What started as a natural instinct, has become a motivation and way of life. I have always felt a push to keep making.
We lived in another favorite house of mine, Hatton St in Karori, Wellington. It was this beautiful architectural masterpiece, and I got to have the big rumpus bedroom downstairs, on its own ‘floor’. The room had a door leading to a tool shed-like outhouse. Full of dust and rusty tin and cobwebs. It became my first studio. There were shelves of old rolls of wallpaper, these became my medium to work with. You can still find several pieces in family members lounge rooms.
When I started High School I picked up art as a subject. I was ecstatic to be able to spend school time painting, and to get marked on it. Obviously at this stage, I thought I was pretty good, and would easily secure top marks. Ah the naive bliss. I was not the best in the class, not by a long shot. It was my first real insight into competition, and that there was a whole world of artists out there, who intended to make it as I did.

High School art taught me several things. It improved my technique, making me think about light, and proportion, and not to shade by smudging. It opened up the world of movements, and periods in art to me. And highlighted different artists styles, and consequently made me question what mine was.

And it taught me that art is subjective, and will not necessarily be appreciated by everyone. Your teacher may not like your work, not because it is bad, but because they personally do not like it.

Looking back it was a transitioning period for me. Previously I had the passion, but now I was concentrating on mastering the skill, and pushing forward a more assertive point of view through my work.


Throughout University I continued to create, and I thought endlessly about putting on a show. I felt I would not be considered a professional artist until I had done a show, and I was so ready to become a part of the scene.

I created a photography based show, looking at heroines from fairy tales, and placing them into today’s world, humbling them, and showing them as dormant lackluster creatures. Waiting for a man to save them; not a strong role model for young women. The show was called Hopelessly Devoted, and it was good/entertaining/interesting enough. My friends and family loved it, or rather loved me. It felt wonderful, but did not bring me the instant success I anticipated. Ahh that old naivety, it hangs around.


Having a new idea is hard. With so many millions of others to compete with, how can you know that someone else isn’t doing the same thing. There used to be a notion of shocking people. This doesn’t seem happen so much anymore.

My art is about myself. I find it hard sometimes to tell people what I think, I find I can do this much better through art. It is about my insecurities, my fears, my wishes. I attempt to show another side of myself, one that doesn’t always make sense, one that perhaps isn’t as likeable. Though my subject may sometimes be vulgar, I like it to appear visually pleasing and pretty. That’s my vanity coming out.

My style continues to evolve, and I’ve now come to the realisation that it will continue to do so. I have slowly been learning some digital art skills, how can you not in this modern day. But I think my passion will always remain with real pens and brushes, things that I can work with my hands. I think I will be painting till I am grey and wrinkly.



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